Title:
Complicate Me (The Good Ol’ Boys)
Author:
Best Selling Author M. ROBINSON
Genre:
Contemporary Romance
Release
Day: September 14th
Cover
Design: Rebecca Marie at The Final Wrap
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*~* Synopsis *~*
It was complicated, it was
also just the beginning.
A decision.
A simple choice.
There is always that one
moment in life where things could have been different. That one
moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a
certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend
that we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was
her boy.
Pretending was better than
knowing the truth...
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate
us.
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*~* Excerpt *~*
My brown eyed girl sat on
our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face.
The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only
heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing
second. It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone,
especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first
time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like that before, and it
shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like I was
dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave.
There was no going back…
No erasing.
No do overs.
No deleting.
What I witnessed tonight
would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her
falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and
I found it hard to breathe.
Hard to move.
My feet were glued to the
goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking
in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that
fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my
veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and
sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her
cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole where my heart
should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off the
walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Mine.
Hers.
Ours.
Growing up in a small town
you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town
gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies,
friends, and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you
think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit.
They say you have that one
moment in life where things could have been different, that one
moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you
could have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and
everything you wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe.
One simple decision could
alter your entire future.
My entire world.
I would forever remember
this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed
everything. This is the moment where I took another direction,
another road that led me to my own demise.
My own regrets.
I should have walked in
there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for her
forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her
again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the
way she had our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those
things…
Not one.
Nothing was said between
us.
No words.
No actions.
I was a coward and
couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look
into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed
her. That I ruined her love and lost her respect for me.
The boy who promised he
would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he would
always protect her.
The boy who vowed he would
never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she was
bawling.
I was the reason she was
hurt.
I was the reason she was
broken.
She knew the truth. It had
finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers.
I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my
heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before.
The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my hurricane
with me…
I couldn’t risk the
possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and
admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t
look at me the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My brown eyed girl.
The girl that I had loved
all of my life.
The same girl that I would
love for the rest of my life.
Alexandra.
I gave her the only
comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I
walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on
and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at
myself in the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t
cause her pain, and that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t
see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to begin with.
That we were still just best friends, and that she was my girl and I
was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her Bo.
It was better than
knowing…
I ruined us.
*~* AUTHOR
BIO *~*
Best
Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that
has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She
has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.
She
was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently
pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.
She is married to an
amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd
mixes and a Tabby cat.
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